Jesse Lingard is a child of Manchester United and a player who wanted to give a lot to the club. However, his adventure at United was never complete. Speaking to The Diary Of A CEO podcast, Lingard spoke about being insulted by fans, as well as his mother's struggle with depression.
“I was drinking before bed, having a nightcap,” Lingard said for The Diary Of A CEO podcast. “I look back now and think, ‘what was I doing that for?’ But I needed something to try and take the pain away and put me at ease somehow.
I was trying to forget what was going on. But it makes it 10 times worse. You’re getting that much abuse, and I’m already down enough, and I’ve got to perform. I’m already going through things you don’t know about… I felt like the world was on my shoulders”.
Lingard had a big responsibility, considering that he had to take care of his brother and sister. “The depression was so bad she couldn’t really cope any more and she needed to go away and get help,” Lingard said.
“But leaving me with my little sister who was 11 at the time and my little brother who was 15, for me, I was still going through my own things as well. So I wasn’t really the big brother they wanted at the time.
They always get the fun, laughy, bubbly Jesse and I was going through my own things, so I was on autopilot. I just wasn’t there mentally”.
Jesse Lingard and Ole Gunnar Solskjaer
Jesse Lingard talked to Ole Gunnar Solskjaer about his mother's problems and his emotions.
“To be abused like that tipped it,” said Lingard. “I didn’t want to be on the pitch, I didn’t want to play. I didn’t want to quit football, I never would have quit football, but I needed a break.
I need to find some motivation, some fire in my belly to get going again because I can’t be doing this. We kept it close knit but even just to have Ole say, ‘how is your mum? How is she doing?’ helped, to let people know what I was going through”.